Melanie Martinez’ music is a recent edition to my life, having first listened to her album only a month ago – but boy am I glad I discovered her. The first time I heard Cry Baby I didn’t think much of it, yeah it had a catchy chorus and the music was good, but if I’m honest I prioritised other songs from the album and neglected it somewhat. After a couple more listens though, Cry Baby really got to me – because for the first time I was hearing something that validated what I have struggled with for most my life; crying. Which is something that many people find amusing or write you off as being immature for doing. She sings –
You try to explain
But before you can start
Those cry baby tears
Come out of the dark
This verse stood out to me because it summarises perfectly what often happens to me. I’ll get really angry and end up crying before I can get my point across, I’ll try and stand up for myself and again, more often than not I’ll cry. It’s a frustrating response and an aspect of myself that I do not like much at all. What makes it worse for me is that my depression mainly manifests itself in excessive anger and sadness – both of which lead to me leaking like a tap on the regular. Listening to her say that it’s ok to let it all out in front of everyone and to not care what people think because it is nothing to ashamed of has definitely had an impact on me and forced me to look at how I view this aspect of myself in a different light. Being a crier of sorts is not a sign of weakness, in fact, it is anything but – and Cry Baby is helping me realise this.